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IlShinigamiIl: I have questions mostly.
IlShinigamiIl: Not here to argue or fight, just want clarification thats all.
IlShinigamiIl: And also because I feel like you have stuff you want to say to me, if not thats fine too.
Veridia: .What Alex
IlShinigamiIl: First drop the attitude.
IlShinigamiIl: Because im coming to you calmly.
Veridia: I don't have an attitude
Veridia: You told me to leave you alone when I ain't did shit to you to begin with
IlShinigamiIl: Why are you hanging around Kay all of a sudden? You never cared to hang around people that I care about or friends with before, so why now?
Veridia: Because you don't control who I hang around? I actually like Kay, and if she's just a friend why is it a problem???? We clicked and that's all it is to it.
IlShinigamiIl: Its not a problem its a curiousity. It is going to become a problem if you continue your "woe is me story" about me, and yes she told me.
IlShinigamiIl: She asked about you, and you convienently only told your half.
Veridia: ???
IlShinigamiIl: In regards to us and our past.
Veridia: Yeah I told her cause she asked
Veridia: What of it?
IlShinigamiIl: Yeah and you only told her your side
Veridia: Nah I didn't
IlShinigamiIl: Where i look like an asshole lol not everything else.
Veridia: Bull
Veridia: LOL.
IlShinigamiIl: Either way. Im not here to debate that.
Veridia: Says the one who says she's just a friend but you're trying to get with her 2 days after telling me you wanted to give us a chance?
Veridia: Make it make sense
IlShinigamiIl: I already explained all that to her as well.
IlShinigamiIl: Also, YOU are the reason i decided not to. But you still want to play the "im not good enough
IlShinigamiIl: ""
IlShinigamiIl: Ive told you several times why I was iffy and scared about giving you a chance.
IlShinigamiIl: And you still chalk it up like im the issue and its all me, like you are little miss innocent.
IlShinigamiIl: Because saying "im not good enough" implies its solely the other persons fault.
Veridia: LMAO HOOW
Veridia: U SAID U WANTED TO TALK ABOUT IT
Veridia: WHEN I TRIED YOU WENT GHOST
Veridia: ALL 3 TIMES
Veridia: SO DON'T EVEN
IlShinigamiIl: Ghost? I have shit going on
IlShinigamiIl: Also, you arent one to talk
IlShinigamiIl: Miss "oh let me get my charger" never comes back doesnt answer discord
IlShinigamiIl: "Oh if i crash ill be right back" never comes back never answers
IlShinigamiIl: And this weekend i had family issues going on
IlShinigamiIl: So no offense but i didnt have time.
Veridia: And I'm supposed to know that how?
IlShinigamiIl: I was too busy helping a family member out of jail for being charged for assualt.
IlShinigamiIl: By asking me why ive been silent when you have a chance to ask
IlShinigamiIl: And not just assume im ignoring you because your pride was hurt.
Veridia: WELL U DIDN'T EXACTLY GIVE ME THAT CHANCE CONSIDERING YOUR SNAPPED ON US FOR BEING CONCERNED
IlShinigamiIl: And also asking me directly whats going. Not asking around.
IlShinigamiIl: No.
Veridia: NO ONE ASKED AROUND
IlShinigamiIl: I snapped for whispering behind my back/
Veridia: KAY ASKED HAD I TALKED TO YOU RECENTLY
IlShinigamiIl: Dont get it mixed up.
Veridia: I SAID NOT SINCE LIKE THURSDAY OR SO
Veridia: THEN SHE SAID I HOPE YOU'RE OKAY
IlShinigamiIl: She knew why i hadnt been talking to her.
IlShinigamiIl: I told her Saturday night, and then all of Sunday I was busy handling things
IlShinigamiIl: And Monday Morning to Afternoon as well.
Veridia: WELL I'M NOT HER, I DIDN'T KNOW JACK SQUAT
Veridia: SHE ASKED ME
Veridia: I ANSWERED
IlShinigamiIl: Then you should of directed her to me?
Veridia: I HADN'T TALKED TO YOU SINCE THE NIGHT YOU SAID YOU RAN SOMEONE OFF FOR HER
IlShinigamiIl: If someone came to me asking about you i would of said idk ask Veri.
Veridia: SHE DIDN'T ASK ABOUT YOU! SHE ASKED HAD I TALKED TO YOU
Veridia: NOT WHATS GOING ON
Veridia: HAD I TALKED TO YOU
Veridia: THAT'S IT ALEX
Veridia: THATS ALL SHE ASKED
IlShinigamiIl: Are you done yelling?
Veridia: ARE YOU DONE PLAYING THE VICTIM CARD AGAIN
IlShinigamiIl: ^ Thats one of the reasons why. You get hella hostile and hella aggresive real fast.
Veridia: No. I'm hella hostile because you snapped at me last night for no reason
IlShinigamiIl: And im not playing the victim card? I have every right to be upset someone is whispering about me in a room that im in with said people.
IlShinigamiIl: Thats not for no reason.
Veridia: I never did shit to you and you took that shit out on me
IlShinigamiIl: I didnt take anything out on you?
IlShinigamiIl: Now whos playing vitcim.
Veridia: "Leave me alone"
Veridia: "i know you're ignoring me"
Veridia: "im over everybody"
Veridia: "**** it"
Veridia: and I wasn't even ignoring you I was gaming?
Veridia: Like
Veridia: Tf
IlShinigamiIl: Oh my bad, i do the things you love to do every confrontation back to you
Veridia: You know I game after work
IlShinigamiIl: now im the bad guy lmao
Veridia: Bullshit
Veridia: I hadn't said nothing about you ignoring me
IlShinigamiIl: Secondly you have a really bad habit of "ghostinh" and not responding to me until either the next day or after that
IlShinigamiIl: So yeah
IlShinigamiIl: Its often gonna feel like youre ignoring me
Veridia: yeah well you never gave me the damn chance
IlShinigamiIl: Veri hours go by half the time
Veridia: Then when i tell you I'm not ignoring you
IlShinigamiIl: I can go back screenshot it if you want.
IlShinigamiIl: Its literally hours half the time.
Veridia: all you said was "Leave me alone"
Veridia: Have you ever asked yourselfwhy
IlShinigamiIl: No because you never tell me
IlShinigamiIl: Miss im gonna have every problem with you but only tell you the ones i feel like discussing
Veridia: Not even
IlShinigamiIl: Yes even
Veridia: No, because not every single time I go mia is because of you
Veridia: Sometimes I leave to avoid arguing with you
Veridia: Or upsetting myself
Veridia: Or because I'm working
Veridia: Or whatever the case is
Veridia: It's not always because of you
IlShinigamiIl: I never said its always because of me.
IlShinigamiIl: But when you leave and without further word
IlShinigamiIl: Yeah its gonna feel like its because or about me.
Veridia: Then ask
IlShinigamiIl: I DO
Veridia: Don't always assume
IlShinigamiIl: And what do you hit me with?
Veridia: NO YOU DON'T.....
IlShinigamiIl: I dont want to talk about it
IlShinigamiIl: I dont want to get into it
Veridia: .....
IlShinigamiIl: forget it
IlShinigamiIl: just drop it
Veridia: IF I SAY THAT THEN YES IT'S ABOUT YOU...... BUT NOT ALWAYS
IlShinigamiIl: I DONT KNOW IF YOU DONT ******* TELL ME VERI
IlShinigamiIl: IM NOT A MIND READER
Veridia: ....
Veridia: HOW CAN I EVER TELL YOU ANYTHING WHEN YOU ALWAYS TAKE IT T THE WRONG WAY AND ASSUME I HAVE ATTITUDES OR SOMETHING WHEN I DON'T
Veridia: ._.
IlShinigamiIl: Because you normally have an aitttude and get hella quick to be defensive abrassive or sometimes real disrespectful.
IlShinigamiIl: Yeah, my bad for being afraid if i dont know youre gonna blow up on me or not
IlShinigamiIl: Thats my fault.
Veridia: I know I have an attitude BUT if I'm telling you I don't have an attitude......and you keep saying stuff like "Uh huh sure.." "Uh huh" then I'm gonna get an attitude
Veridia: Just like now I have an attitude because I did nothing wrong last night and you tell me to leave you alone
Veridia: Like
Veridia: Whaaaat?
Veridia: I'm not the one who denied whispering
IlShinigamiIl: Because you dont see how you come off and how you word things comes off
Veridia: But why you questioning me about who I"m friends with?
Veridia: You should be GLAD I'm friends with her?
IlShinigamiIl: Because you never cared to gravitate around my friends before
Veridia: Cause majority of them are-----your exs
Veridia: exes*
IlShinigamiIl: Or let alone gravitate aroind someone im interested in before.
Veridia: Oh now you admit it
Veridia: :)
IlShinigamiIl: I never denied it?
Veridia: You did
IlShinigamiIl: When?
Veridia: You said she was just a friend
IlShinigamiIl: Yeah, we are friends right now/
Veridia: Not that you had any interest in being with her
IlShinigamiIl: We arent in a dynamic.
IlShinigamiIl: SO no i didnt deny anything.
IlShinigamiIl: Shes under my mentorship and protection but we arent in a dynamic.
IlShinigamiIl: And last i checked you can be interested in a friend.
Veridia: So let me ask you this, WHY even tell me you wanted to give it a shot and then 2 days later you're on to the next person
Veridia: Hmm>
Veridia: ??*
IlShinigamiIl: Because within 2 days I realized that im never gonna feel safe enough to be vulnerable around you.
Veridia: Hmm that's funny considering you don't know that
IlShinigamiIl: You cant tell me what I do and dont feel.
IlShinigamiIl: I have not felt safe to be vulnerable with you since ive met you Veridia.
IlShinigamiIl: And its not the first time ive mentioned this.
IlShinigamiIl: And unfortunately, you dont get to dictate if i can or should feel safe with you.
IlShinigamiIl: I dont.
IlShinigamiIl: And havent.
IlShinigamiIl: Also Kay Ive known for a few months now, shes not just some random chick I just met.
IlShinigamiIl: And like I said, I AM Demisexual, feeling safe and having a bond is key for me.
Veridia: ....
Veridia: I'm done
IlShinigamiIl  Nods 
Veridia: You don't even get it
Veridia: At all.
IlShinigamiIl: I dont get what?
Veridia: I'm done explaining. I'm done letting myself even get slightly happy around you. I thought for once, JUST MAYBE I could let my guard down around you. Yeah nope you proved that to be wrong all over again. You want to be safe around me , yet you give me every reason to act the way I do. I'm done being your second choice. I'm done being your "backup" I'm just done. If I'm not your first choice then don't bring up a dynamic to be again. Period. I'm tired of you doing that. You mention it to me, then you go ghost for whatever reason, then come back and flirt with anything with a ***** between its' legs that will flirt back. Knowing it pisses me off. So no. We can be friends, but that's where I draw the line. Don't question me on what I do or who I hang around anymore. If you don't want to be friends anymore either. Then I wish you well and I hope you have a wonderful life