I just want you to know that I love you : If I had one choice in my life, it would definitely be to tell you that in person ! I feel guilty thinking,  this is because of me that  you might want  to cut all your  online networks, etc :  I sometimes wonder : "And if she looks at my contents/pages, what does she think? But, even though I  sometimes stress, and I'm scared : When I tell you that I love you ... For me, it's real. I am not fighting against myself whatsoever ! (That's why we are alive for that very feeling). I've seen it happen, and therefore now  "my life is you"! You can ignore me , block me and all that. It will remain your choice: I don't want to hurt you. You don't deserve this. I just wish that you and I could live in a world where it wouldn't be scary and/or it would be normal to tell somebody : "I want to love you for life".  (At least try honestly) ...  Now I'm afraid to even have one date with any other woman. Because I don't want my feelings for you to disappear. Of course, I would love to hug a woman, in my arms, (because physically I haven't done anything for far too long) 🙂 But, this is not a game ...  I don't want to forget you ... I want to protect you keep yourself close to mine Melanie! If you love me (even if you are afraid to talk to me.) Don't struggle -- Send me positive vibes  from afar instead. I tend to  think I've ruined everything and that it's my fault. 

But, the truth is that when thsese events and even when I try to move on : I keep on loving you and then I'm afraid that life will force me to forget you in time. I'm clumsy, every time you open a door for me, I don't see anything. And then, when I understand that you loved me ;  I exaggerate even more. I love you Melanie, whatever happens, please remember that! I'm strong enough to come to you for only five minutes if necessary. And, eventually if we both see that it doesn't work, between us, i'd then leave (of course with regrets). But for once, honestly  I'll mean everything I said to a single person ...  If you don't want to be my lover, fine. But remember I'm a good guy, I'm not mean! Your good is my good. Recently I was with children, let's say kids  are not afraid of people ; they are afraid of situations. And once they see that you are cool, there are no more barriers between you and them. That's why the other day, my five-year-old cousin kept telling me: "Are you okay ? I love you" !   Why don't adults do that? If there's only  one person I could  go to just to ask that it would be  you. I want to love you like that mostly  because now  I can. And eventually, because the wisdom and mental evolution I got from you is priceless and will be with me forever. and beyond  Stay as you are, I'm here if you need/want. 🙂