Listen, as much as I want to work things out between us. I'm not so sure anymore. These past few days, I've felt so shitty I'm not even sure if being with you is worth it whenever I'm going to be scared for all of this to happen again.
I haven't trusted you since Emory and doing his eyeliner, or recently when you stuttered before you told me you saw him at the park, I could tell you I still trust you a little, but I dont. for months, I've expected you to cheat, there are reasons I've backed off Corina. What about the time you told Marissa you weren't sure if you loved me or not. You told her you didn't know because it wasn't like how she talked about her and cannon. 

How am I supposed to put effort into a relationship I'm getting nothing out of? You talk like you do so much for me, but you dont, Corina, you dont. You dont speak my love language; you dont reassure me whenever we are together; you dont make me feel wanted. I've stopped doing all the little things, but what about you? You didn't think this didn't go both ways, did you? because our entire relationship has felt like me trying to win you over, and thats it. This whole thing has been me chasing you because I love you. I can only run for so ******* long, Corina, and I'm done with it. Either we can sit right the **** where we are at and fix things for GOOD, or we can both go our separate ways.

I've always loved you, Corina. But, these past few days, I didn't understand that love could hurt differently than guilt and much worse. Nothing has ever hurt me like you have when you told me you wanted to take a break because that told me you were unsure of me when I was so sure of you. That was a betrayal to me. I take loyalty so seriously, Corina; I was neglected by shitty alcoholic and workaholic parents until I was a teen; I'm afraid of people leaving me, and when you decided to take a break. It felt you left me finally. It feels like you've already broken us up, and I dont know how much building I'm willing to do anymore with you. I've stressed myself so hard for so long trying to chase you because it never felt like I had you. So reason with my point of view here.

I feel as if I'll never be enough for you. 
I feel like you'll never stay for longer than six months 
I feel demoralized, distraught, and tired from worrying about you.
I've lost faith in the fact that you genuinely love me.
but ultimately,
you broke my trust a long time ago
That's when I stopped trying
That's when I lost faith
That's when I started feeling like I'll never be enough
That's when I started crying at night because I knew the woman I loved didn't want me anymore.